My Fairytale

They say what makes a fairytale is the bumpy plot followed by the happy ending.
Well I think I've mastered the bumpy plot. Now, I'm waiting patiently for the light at the end of the tunnel. Lately it seems that all I do is worry-- worry about school, work, money, relationships --- the list goes on and on. And just when I seem to get my feet on the ground, the rug is pulled right from under me. I know SUPER DEPRESSING!!
But unlike most Damsels in Distress, I'm not going to sit around and wait for my white horse to save me. After twenty years of learning lessons, I've finally come to the realization that a MAN doesn't define me. Seems like an easy enough concept-- but I'm starting to believe that alot of women go through it, even if they won't admit. I know ladies, I was one of them. I thought I was one of those Ms. Independent type. But now that I'm doing little bit of self reflecting, I'm realizing somewhere in the dating scene, I lost who I was.
TIP: The best way to find out who you really are, is to be alone with yourself.
Even though my happy ending has yet to come, I've decided that I'm not going to be like Cinderella and Snow White. I'm going to enjoy my bumpy plot and learn a lesson or two along the way. And sooner or later, I too will find my white horse.--- but I'm going to take the reins.

 

Gratitudes:
* Grey's Anatomy ( Love it!) 
* Friends who have been where I am
*8 a.m. classes-- I'm not sleeping my day away

A weight on weighing. . .

So, from the outside it looks like my boyfriend and I are living the dream. You know, those kind of love sick relationships you see in movies that you find yourself envying. Yeah, that was us. I saw WAS because it has all come unraveled. I am no longer his leading lady in his so called "blockbuster movie."
I know a blog isn't exactly the safest place to be placing my emotions on the situation, but I'm a writer and I've got to get this out somehow. And honestly, I'm too embarrassed to tell any of my friends.
Last night, I found out that our whole relationship has been a lie. SHOCKER! A guy lying... mmmmm... like that's a new concept.
He lies about EVERYTHING. And yes I do mean everything. Even things that don't really matter like, what time he is going to the gym.

Now I find myself looking back at all the pictures and thinking of all the memories and think--- why?
He says he will change-- doubtful. But I love him--- I think?
I'm left weighing the pros and cons of letting him back into my life. So far, I've got nothing.
Suggestions?

Answers?